Someday you will tell God with a shake of your head: "I got nothin".
It will come after you've prayed, stopped praying and then picked it up again out of habit.
You'll have had faith, lost it and found that life is too depressing without it.
Your husband will still be without a job and everyone will ask you with expectancy and you'll try to look cute as you shrug your shoulders and smile and say "still waiting" and you'll change the subject because you have lost all sense of where you should go or what you should do or what you were waiting for in the first place or why on earth you and your husband wanted to work for a church to begin with since they all seem to be about saying no instead of oh wow brad and carrie you guys are great and we would love to have you work at our church.
Hypothetically. This might happen to you.
So that's why, someday if not already, you'll say to the dark... "I Got Nothin".
And you'll mean it.
Some of the poetic folk will say that now God can move and provide and give to you all that your heart desires. As if all that time before he was withholding because you were doing it wrong. Some days that will sound exciting. Other days you won't buy that view of God. But it's your choice.
The morning will come and you'll remember last night's declaration as you pour your coffee. You'll sigh and decide what kind of day it will be. A day where you trust and wait. Or a day where you disconnect and wait.
When this happens to you, call me and we'll get coffee. I'll buy.